In illinois

Hey y'all...I'm in illinois right now... I'm at my Aunt Dee Dee's house. Ashley and me are the only ones up...Everyone else is asleep.. I'm usually at my Sister's house but i spent the night here to see my mom bc she is sleeping over too.. We had my Aunt Susie's surprise b-day party today...Me adn Ashley are both on the computer..They have 2 computers in the same room.. So i'm on one and she's on one....lol....She got a journal 2....Bc i had 1....She is writing in hers right now...Today was fun...But I'm mad at John Richard(my cousin).....Bc him and Daryl were playing Xbox...And we were talking about how Adam(Jenny's bf) weights only 136lbs...So i was like wow you are only 15 pounds more then me.....And the John was like yeah fatty........and then Daryl was like yeah you need to stop eattin those potato chips......Ok first of all I don't even like potato chips....lol...But then John was all the rest off the night calling me chubby and fat....I mean I felt like crying but i held it in.......I seriously felt like not eatting for ever.......So now every like 3 hours I go I weight myself to see how much I weight....I just wish people would STOP...I don't know how much more I can take....And then I had my Pajama bottoms on...And I was like"Opps my underwear or showing"(we aren't going to share what kind)......and he was like wow....And i knew he was going to call me something....So i was like"What are u going to call me"...And he was like nvm...and I was like "No tell me"...So he was like I going to call you a slut...........OMFG....He is my cousin...and he is 17...I think he should know better then to call a girl fat and a slut.......I'm starting to think if I'am a slut....I mean everyone seams to think so....I mean My life is a living hell.........Right now I have to deal woth Lonna and Daryl fight everynight......Daryl is Lonna's bf....I think inless they are just living together bc Kayla is their kid........But Lonna is having another baby....Which is good...But it kinda isn't...Bc i know that Lonna isn't happy with Darly....I mean I wouldn't be either....So now she has even more reason to stat with him...Bc now they have 2 kids together......See that's y you shouldn't have kids before you get married..........I mean if I was with a guy like Daryl i wouldof left long ago......All he does is play his game on the computer......from when he gets home from work till Lonna yells at him for being on it so long....Which is around 11pm or 12am..I mean that is a long time.....And all i do all day is watch t.v....So that's really boring.....And i get woke up at 9am by Kayla...Bc i sleep on teh couch....So when Kayla is watching her blues clues and stuff...When she gets bored she thinks it's time for Anut Saa to get up...lol....She comes over to the couch and goes "Aunt Saa"...And climbs on my stomache....And give me a big hug and kiss......lol.....And then she won't let me fall back asleep...So i lay on the couch and watch Blues Clues and Dora...omg I know both the theme songs and everyhting..lol.....You know what is good?....Apple Jacks....lol.....Dry...not with milk....I miss Brandon...I wish I was in Wisconsin....So i could talk on teh phone....and get spoiled...Bc here I don't get spoiled...lol....

Oh and a bad thing is that my Mouth surgey was moved up to AUGUST 23RD!!!!!.....omg...that is like 9 days away.....I don't want to go.....I'm scared...And then when I get mty braces off ...in like 2 mouths...I might have to get an Implant....So they have to drill into my jaw bone....omg....That sounds so painful.....Well i'm done for tonight.....Buh Bye

I love you so much Brandon and I miss you!!

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